The Hypocritical Man

August 31, 2012-When “you” read this, I hope “you” apologize to me.

When I was in senior high school, there was somebody admiring me. Unfortunately, I didn’t like him. I tried to avoid him but he made effort to attract me. He did anything and I began to sympathize with him because he really knew me, he understood me. One thing that I didn’t like from him was that his appearance. I was not a sort of hypocritical person, I searched for someone who was good-looking at that time. Yet still, I accepted the way he was.
Time went by and I was still with him. We didn’t have a special relationship but we did something that couple did as well. Actually, it was not like a real couple but generally it was the same. The different was that we rarely met and there was something like a barrier between us so I felt difficult to express what I felt to him. He convinced me that he did love me by inviting me to a dinner with his family. It was not for once or twice, but three times even more. Honestly, I had no feeling to him because I still thought that he couldn’t be what I wanted him to be.
Then, I decided to leave him and it was in a harsh way. We didn’t get along well for few years until one time, after about 3 years I could talk to him again. He said he still loved me. I thought he didn’t change at all, his appearance, his character, his feeling to me though I didn’t know whether he did love me or not. He had got a job and lived outside this island. We got closer and closer again but it was just for awhile because I realized that he was not what I wanted and I had had a boyfriend.
I didn’t meet him anymore after that separation but we still kept in touch via blackberry messenger. He kept behaving that he loved me but I gave no response. When I was involved in student service project, he called me. He said he wanted to say something but I didn’t want to answer his call. I asked him to text me only but he didn’t want so I just ignored him and had no curiosity about what he was going to talk about.
After finishing the student service project, I heard that he was going to get married. What a big shot it was! What he said to me about his feeling so far, is that true? Or he just lied to me. Or it is I who have wrong suspicion about his feeling. Maybe I am wrong to think that he still loves me while he doesn’t. I think he just wants me to be someone when he needs but when he doesn’t need, he can throw me away. He is such a hypocritical man. I really hate him and I won’t remember anymore about what he has done to me.
He invited me to his marriage but I couldn’t come, I didn’t want to come, and I wouldn’t come. No one knows how big my hateful feeling to him. Now, when I see his picture with another girl, I always want to know and see more and more, why? Am I jealous? Indeed, I AM NOT. But I don’t know for sure, I can say NO yet in the deep of my heart, who knows?! It is too impossible for me to envy. I just think that why does this all happen to me? I don’t believe in him and I don’t want to know about him. No more…

The Last Meeting of Creative Writing Class

Today is the last meeting of creative writing class. It is longer than usual because last week was a holiday so this week class covers last week class. Honestly, what we have done in class is not so useful because there is a group which has workshop and the other groups which has no writing to give comment on discuss the story that we have read. Actually on Monday we decided to have workshop for Thursday so this means that every student should prepare something for workshop. As a matter of fact, they bring nothing on Thursday and only 6 students have works for workshop included me. As usual, having workshop is fun when we really discuss and give comment on our friends’ works and I don’t realize that we have had workshop for an hour, it takes many time but I never feel bored.
Honestly, it is a little bit sad and disappointed of having no more class on creative writing. It is because I begin to enjoy writing and doing homework. It can encourage me to write and that I can also express my thought and feeling. Anyway, it doesn’t really matter for me. I can continue other assignments that I should do and I also have to prepare my final project as well as research for the final examination.
Thanks to the lecturer for giving us many knowledge during this semester and also for her willingness and ability to encourage us to write. I hope with the questionnaires we have in the end of the class, she can improve herself and her teaching for next semester. GOOD LUCK!

Writing Autobiography in Italian

I have just realized that I get many things from Italian class. Now I can translate sentences into Italian. I am not sure that I can translate the sentences but when I begin to try translating, I can do it! So, the lecturer asked us to write about autobiography at least 200 words. Firstly, I write in English then I think it will be very complex translating in Italian. As a matter of fact< it is not really difficult but it needs extra effort and patient. It can also be done when we have a good dictionary, I myself use Oxford. Though I don’t translate in one hundred percent right but at least I know how to construct sentences in Italian. Let see my writing and also my translation that has been revised by my lecturer.
La Mia Autobiografia
Sono nato a Yogyakarta il 30 novembre 1990. Ho un fratello, il suo nome è Nicki. Ora cerca di maggiore studio all'università. Mio padre è morto quando avevo 8 anni e ora mia madre ha sposato di nuovo. Lei è un imprenditore, apre un piccolo ristorante in Cirebon. Ho passato tutta la mia vita in Yogyakarta e non voglio lasciare, anche progetto cercare un lavoro qui dentro. Studio all’inglese Dipartimento UGM, ora questo è il mio terzo anno. Mi piace moltissimo della lingua inglese e voglio migliorare la mia abilità che ho otteneto quando ho partecipato corso di inglese. Sono un duro lavoratore, non mi importa aiutare le persone quando bisognano di me. La mia debolezza è che sono perfezionista, quindi cerco sempre di fare tutto perfetamente. Quando non posso farlo perfettamente, rimpiangerò davvero e incolpare me stesso. Per questo motivo, cerco sempre di fare meglio per ottenere che voglio. Facciamo un esempio! Ho deciso prendere questa classe e così devo essere coerente. Quando la classe è in corso, ho una grande difficoltà a imparare una questa lingua. Questa è chiaramente perché non ho mai imparato la lingua europea così sento difficile da ricordare e memorizzare le parole nuove. Perché non voglio essere stupido, cerco di studiare duramente sebbene non sono ancora davvero bravo in questa lingua, almeno sapevo alcune regole e non rinuncio in attesa di un miracolo, vieni da me. Per la mia vita futura, progetto continuare il mio studio all’estero se otteno una borsa di studio. Poi, voglio essere una insegnante di inglese. Con speranza, può insegnare nel mio dipartimento. Sogno sempre ottenere un buono lavoro di modo che posso aiutare la mia madre a costruire e migliorare il suo affare. Vorrei che posso rendere la mia famiglia felice.

Going to Pizza Pazza Today

Today, after the last creative writing class, my friend and I plan to go to a pizza restaurant in Jalan Kaliurang named Pizza Pazza. We really wanted to go there since few weeks ago and now we have more time and money to eat there. It is a real Italian pizza because the chef is Italian and he is my Italian lecturer’s brother. My lecturer said to us in class that his brother opened a pizza restaurant and we were directly excited to taste the real Italian pizza. Actually I usually go to Nanamia when I want to eat pizza but my Italian lecturer said that Nanamia is not the original of Italian pizza. He said that the chefs in Nanamia only put some cheese so all pizzas there have a strong cheese taste and they have the same taste. However, they should have different taste with other kinds of pizza.
So, we leave at 3.30 p.m. and it takes about half an hour to get there. Unfortunately, it is closed. Indeed, we are very disappointed. We have imagined that we will taste the real Italian pizza but we can’t. I don’t know why it is closed because it usually opens in the afternoon until night. We still want to eat pizza, not any other food so we decide to go to Nanamia and order Napoli. It is a pizza with anchovies, paprika, onion, and mozzarella toping. We are quite satisfied and we want more but we are out of money. :D

Feeling Remorse of being Procrastinator

I planned to join writing competition. I read this competition announcement few months ago and the application submission would be closed this May. I am sort of a procrastinator, I will do a work when the deadline is closer. I guess some of my friends in class share the same thing with me. So, this writing competition required the participants to write about Dutch creativity. The winner of this competition would join two-week short course in Dutch. Since I admire Dutch so much, I am really interested to join this competition. The participants were required to write at least one writing or more, but no more than 3 writings on this topic. They should post them in their blog and send the link of their writings to the committee. The submission of the link was opened from April 16. During the time of the submission, I tried to write well and I have posted my writings in my blog. I wrote 2 writings on Dutch creativity in industry and education. Actually I have done writing and I was waiting for the exact time to send this link. I was thinking of sending the link on May 15 at night but I thought I had to edit them again. I did not really notice when the submission was closed. As far as I remembered, this submission would be closed on May 16. So, in the next morning on May 16, I turned on my laptop and began to review my writings. Then, I connected my laptop to the internet and opened the website of the competition. What a really big shot it was when I saw the final date of the submission was on May 15! I really felt remorse of being procrastinator. I wish I didn’t procrastinate and sent the link to the committee earlier. Though I was not sure to be the winner, at least I have tried. But my chance now disappears and that there is no hope anymore. I will always remember the 16th day of May.

I am in Love

Again, I am falling in love
I no longer want to feel it
for the feeling often tortures me
I no longer want to feel it
for you always come in my mind bothering me
I no longer want to feel it
for I want to do nothing without you
When I see people in love, and I am as well,
I feel what they feel yet it is different
Theirs is sweeter than mine, I think
I am thinking of having an affinity with you
though I realize it is impossible
I can only feel it with my pain
Again, I am falling in love

Am I Falling in Love?

When I am pleased to think of you
Am I falling in love?
When I am pleased to imagine you
Am I falling in love?

When I am pleased to phone you
Am I falling in love?
When I am pleased to talk to you
Am I feeling in love?

When I am pleased to see you
Am I falling in love?
When I am pleased to meet you
Am I falling in love?

When I am pleased to be together with you
Am I falling in love?
When I am pleased to jest with you
Am I falling in love?

Indeed, I am falling in love

Dutch as an Innovative Country in Industry

DUTCH, what come to your mind when you hear this country? A country with its windmills maybe? Or one of the smallest advanced country in the world? Most people are not aware that Dutch is an innovative country; the country where brilliant ideas are born. A small country does not always mean small in creating an innovative way to develop the country, instead it should be a motivation to work hard to be one of the best countries, and Dutch actualize it.
As an innovative country, Dutch is able to maintain their country as a country which is able to inspire other countries. Dutch could maintain a good relationship among government, university, and industry. They cooperate to organize and control the system in their country so that it could balance the development among all aspects. For instance, an industrial company labors in a cooperative manner with a certain university to create new ideas and technology to help the company in its production. This affects on how Dutch could manage their own country that is later called self-service country. This means that Dutch people are not dependent and are able to become self-reliance.
Dutch people innovate any aspect of their country, such as education, industry, even they innovate the way they build a land under the sea level. For the first example in industry, Dutch invent a plane without sound and carbonic acid. There used to be the same kind of this plane yet the previous one was not as fast as it is now, it moved 100-150 km/hour. Dutch people desire to manufacture this plane which moves 460 km/hour and is as fast as nowadays plane. Another example is that Dutch people try to overcome the traffic jam which nowadays becomes a main serious problem in every country in the world. Dutch is trying to invent a car which can fly named PAL-V (Personal Air and Land Vehicle). It is a vehicle equipped with 3 wheels and 2 propellers which can be folded. It can fly around 500 feet from the surface. When it is used in land, it can speed up to 180 km/hour. Though it has ever been invented with the same model by America in 2009, Dutch is still trying to innovate and make it better than the previous car. This sort of vehicle is suitable for public service such as ambulance and police officer so that they can go through a long distance only in a short time.
Creating a facility for a better life is not restricted only in industry. Dutch people do not run out of idea. Philips ‘floating’ street lighting was invented to save energy for efficiency. It is said to be lower in cost than the conventional lighting system. This street lighting is hanged at a height of four and a half meters. The design of this lighting is unique and that it won the 2011 Dutch Design Award.
All innovations in Dutch are created by themselves, for themselves, and to themselves. Who else will aware of their welfare if it is not them? They grow as a self-dependent country and that they could create wealth for their country. The character of Dutch people should inspire people in other countries in the world so that most countries could enjoy their successful hard work.

Sources:
http://ihatesundaymorning.blogspot.com/2012/04/belanda-di-antara-multikulturalisme.html
http://www.ramadoni.com/2010/04/5-fakta-inovatif-dari-si-oranye-belanda/
http://qonitarahmi.blogspot.com/2012/05/inovasi-belanda-dalam-menangani.html
http://www.newscenter.philips.com/main/standard/news/press/2012/20120410-eindhoven-first-with-philips-floating-street-lighting.wpd

Dutch as an Innovative Country in Education

Innovations play very important role in contributing advantages to a certain country. Innovations in Dutch arise as a result of many educated people. With knowledge, people are able to create innovations which later could benefit their country. Educated people need to update their information on nowadays event and that they need to read newspaper. Students, especially businessman are accustomed to read newspaper anywhere they are. When they are doing a travel to the office or school and when they are in public places, they sometimes read the newspaper while waiting for train, buses, or even their friends. Reading newspaper with a wide shape is not efficient, however, because sometimes this bothers other people with its wide shape. With this reason, Dutch people attempt to create newspaper in an efficient shape. What a creative people they are! This new kind of newspaper is vertical shape. Though this idea might be unique and simple, the advantage caused by this movement will affect much in people’s life because it directly connects to the efficiency and people’s daily life.
Talking about education, the most dominant aspect of it is library where people could get information and knowledge of anything, it can be from books, internets, or even some journals and researches. Dutch has a library called DOK which is financed by city council, it is located in Delft. This library is often called as entrepreneur library since it saves a potential of entrepreneur. There are kinds of membership that is free and paid membership and the librarians are able to make 28% delft inhabitants to enroll in a paid membership which enables them to access all facilities in this library. It is basically different from other libraries. Here, in this library, not only books can be found but also fast internet access in a lower cost. In DOK library, children are not only able to read books but they can also listen to music, play games and play station in computer.

Sources:
http://www.ramadoni.com/2010/04/5-fakta-inovatif-dari-si-oranye-belanda/
http://maulanusantara.wordpress.com/2011/07/28/sistem-pendidikan-belanda/

This Friday Writing Tutorial Class

Today I taught writing for first-year students of English Department in my campus. I have planned to discuss spoof text and an amazing holiday but I have just realized that next week is not sure whether it will be a holiday or not, so I decided to have an informal class. We watched movie and have nothing to do. The movie was “Don’t be Afraid of the Dark”, it was a horror movie. I think it was a good movie and Western horror movie are always good. Unfortunately, I couldn’t watch the movie fully because I had to interview some students for my sociolinguistics research. While they were watching the movie, I interviewed some of them. The class was supposed to begin at 1 p.m. but the students came at 1.20 p.m. so we started the movie late and the class was over late as well. It should finish at 2.30 p.m. but then it finished at 3 p.m. I should have done nothing after the class so I felt happy to be together with them longer than usual.

The Place Where I Used to Live

The place where I used to live when I was a kid never changes, but the people. I could see my mother was preparing breakfast for me and my brother, a gorgeous food, a glass of white milk. Then, she took us to school with the improper old motorcycle. We used to be together before it came and destroyed anything. Jackfruits hanging on the tree were always there in front of my room’s window. A small casuarinas tree which I always designed with my brother in Christmas Eve, pretending that we celebrated Christmas. The colorful lamp which my father set for us. Red, yellow, green, and blue. There used to be butterflies in our garden. They were easy to be caught. Children liked to play in our garden looking for some bugs. Taking a nap was an activity we always did together in my family. There used to be no veranda there. But when it came, it destroyed anything. The living room where we used to watch TV and jest was where the corpse laid down. And we, were separated. My brother was out of the city, so was my mother. But I was still here, in the place where I used to live when I was a kid and the memories always appeared in my mind.

Happy Wednesday

As usual, I attended Italian class at 1 o’clock. Today I was so happy because I have set it just after I got up in the morning. Some people believe that setting your mind and heart to be happy and not think of your problems at all will affect your feeling throughout the whole day. Anyway, I was glad because I have understood Italian grammar and I became curious to learn more about it. I asked many things during the class since it was so difficult to understand present perfect tense and relative clause in Italian. Unexpectedly, the native teacher, Fabio, told a little bit about Italian because there was something in the book we were discussing was related. He told us about the economics and Italian cuisine. All Italians could cook either they are men, women, children, or adults. Then I asked him where he usually went when he wanted to eat Italian food in Indonesia, he answered “in my brother’s warung.” I became more interested since I was fond of Italian food and that I usually went to Nanamia which served original Italian pizza. I took this class was as well because of the food. I loved the food and I wanted to learn the language. He said that his brother’s warung, Pizza Pazza, was more original since the chef was his own brother. Pazza means crazy, so it could mean a crazy pizza because of the taste or maybe the people who were fond of pizza. It was not only me who was interested in asking him about it, my other friends even asked the phone number to order the delivery. In the end of the class, he offered an additional time to have conversation class and all of us agreed, we even offered him to hold the class in his brother’s warung.  Fortunately, he agreed and he would provide us a drink for free. We were so happy and excited. I hope he would also buy us the pizza. 

When I am Falling in Love,

When I am falling in love, I want to do nothing
but thinking of you,
When I am falling in love, I want to see nothing
but you
When I am falling in love, I want to possess nothing
but you

For the first three weeks, it would be painful for I lose my mind, always thinking of you
Yet it’s only for a moment; If it isn’t, impossible for only three weeks
I like you, I admire you, I adore you; I know it’s only an emotion, a desire

How could I erase this feeling?
I lose control, it isn’t guided
Honestly, indeed I don’t try to restrain

Yes, your face is ahead of me any time
I will always wait for the time when I no longer like you
Because I already have a boyfriend

Result of Italian Mid-term Exam

It has been a week since I had this exam. I was so depressed leaving the class since I have not finished all parts of this exam. The teacher said we would have an open-book test but he did not allow me to open the book or even the note when the day of the exam came. So, I did not study at all and I was so sure I could do nothing without my notes. I came to class at 1 o’clock and he directly gave me the result. What a surprise! I got 55, awful! What made me more surprised was that my result was the best five. I was so shocked! The highest score was 91. The teacher said that the safe range of the result was between 50 and 80. This meant that I was safe, it was not a really bad result. Yet still I have to study hard understanding all the grammar rules. Fortunately, I don’t hate grammar even I love learning it. I promise to do better in the final exam and I plan to take Italian class for the higher level in the next semester if possible.

Marching Band UGM Birthday Celebration

I attended this celebration about a couple of days ago with my boyfriend. It was held in Gelanggang Mahasiswa UGM. When I have just arrived, I felt the difference. Actually, when the celebration was held, the marching band team of UGM should perform; and this year, it was the juniors’ turn to perform. I have performed 2 years ago and now I was still here. That was the difference; the difference between when I was one of the players of the band and when I was no longer a player. The way the committee held this celebration was different as well. When I was being the player, the celebration was so joyous and luxurious but this year looked so simply and lack of the audiences. Anyway, some shows performed in this celebration were quite entertaining. The last show was the show that we have been waiting for, it was the performance from the junior players. I missed to be a player again, it was so fun, I learned many things from it. But I realized that I was in the 6th semester and it was no longer the time for me to have fun and do nothing for my graduating paper. This event finished at 11 p.m. and I went home late. This year celebration did not give me a certain impression. It was so boring and I should not come to this event. Doing my assignments was better, I think. 

A Reward for You

You recognized the circumstances

You were aware of the punishment

You realized all impacts you would get later

When you’ve known, why did you lie?


Telling a fake story of your life,

saying every single word falsely

were all what you have done in the court

When you’ve known, why did you lie?


Now you got the reward

The reward from what you have done in the past

The reward from what you have done in the court

When you’ve known, why did you lie?

Don’t ever harass yourself and don’t ever make yourself difficult

God blesses your kids and your family

We are going to encounter 5 years from now

English Accents

I prepared anything to face sociolinguistics mid-term exam today. I studied hard last night though it was an open-book exam. One of many things that I studied was about accent and dialect. People are mistaken in differing accent with dialect. I searched for some sources in the internet, I read it and directly I became understand of the source that said about accent and dialect. Here, I want to give a brief explanation that accent is simply about how people pronounce words differently. It has something to do with pronunciation. Dialect is the different way of the use of language distinguished by pronunciation, grammar, and vocabulary. Accent can be said as a part of dialect. Talking about accent and dialect, today my friends and I were visited by a lecture from India. She gave a lecture on African-American Women Writers in American Studies class. I did not really concentrate to what things she was delivering. I preferred to observe how Indian speaks English. Basically, she spoke English clearly but the Indian accent was still heard strongly. I was excited in identifying this phenomenon since I did not really understand what accent and dialect were in reality. So far I only learned it in writing form; I never tried to observe accent and dialect that were practiced orally. Observing the way she spoke reminded me of another lecturer who still has his accent strongly. He is my lecturer in Italian class. Italians always keep the hard sound in the end of every single word. Fabio, the lecturer, always speaks English with Italian accent and still keeps the hard sound in every word he says. I am probably right about what accent is. If you read this writing and know that I am wrong, please tell me! 

Lemon Mask

I wrote about the steps to use white egg mask a few weeks ago. Now it is time to tell you about lemon mask. People believe that masking your face using lemon will make your face bright and no acne appears in it.

The thing that you should prepare:
Lemon
Knife
Towel
Cold Water
Warm Water

Steps:
1. Wash the lemon so that it is clean
2. Cut the lemon and smear the lemon that you have cut to your face
3. It will be a little bit painful but it indicates that the substances in the lemon are working
4. Wait for about 15 minutes then wipe your face with towel using warm water
5. After washing your face with warm water, wash it again using cold water to minimize the pore It is done! Isn’t it easy? You can apply it any time you want. The more regularly you apply it, the better your face will be. Have a nice try! 

Mine is not Yours

Mine is not yours. All know, yours is better than mine. Yours is more perfect. Yours is more useful than mine. If so, I will not be able to show mine as the best for you all. I can’t say that mine is useful for them, but don’t ever look down on him. I feel hard to convince you that mine is the best for me though you think he is nothing. I know mine is not yours. But this is mine, that is yours. We have our own. I will not grab yours though they do not like mine. I am totally sure of what I have, yet still I am a little shy of mine.

I am in the Middle of Them

I am in the middle of them
I think I am like nothing
They are superior
Unlike me, inferior

What do you understand by superior?
How about inferior?
Indeed you never know
For they are terms of mine

When I am in the middle of them
I feel embarrassed
When I am in the middle of them
I feel useless

I admire them so much
I adore them
more than you know

What do they actually think of me?
Do they think that I am nothing?
Do they consider me as the one who is useful for them?

They are sometimes arrogant
When that sort of thing appears, my admiration is gone

They are sometimes kind as well
When it appears, my adorableness is getting higher

They..
Do you know who they are?

Italian Mid-term Exam

Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Unlike Dutch mid-term exam, Italian mid-term exam is easier for it is an open-book exam. However, Italian is a difficult language to learn, there are too many rules to remember. Though we are allowed to open the notes, I believe the questions will not be as easy as we imagine. We may open the note but we are not allowed to open the textbook, so I planned to make some notes on every unit/chapter in the book. I worked hard all day long to make notes on 10 units and I could finally finish it.
When the time came, Fabio, the name of the lecturer, has not come yet. It was exactly one o’clock. He never came late so far. We thought he would not come and we decided to leave the class. Actually it was annoying for me because I have written the notes which took very long time to make but then the exam was cancelled. I was so disappointed! I have learnt all things by spending most time to understand the things in the book but it was for NOTHING.
On my way to the parking lot I met Fabio. He said that he was a little bit late that day. He tried to reach the class but everybody ran away, that was what he said. I sometimes laugh at the way he speaks English because he still uses Italian dialect while speaking English. 
I told him that we have waited for 20 minutes and thought that he would not come because he was never late. Then, he said to me that he would reschedule the exam and I think we are going to have the exam a week after. Hmmmm, it is okay for me.. I wish I could do it! 

Dutch Mid-term Exam

Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Yesterday I was preparing Dutch mid-term exam. It is pretty difficult to master for the grammar requires many rules. As everybody knows, this language uses gender for things and also, the verb forms are different for each subject. This was very special for me after long time I never learn new languages. That is why I tried to study hard and that I had to sleep late at night. I went to bed at 3 a.m. It was not a superb thing because I am accustomed to going to bed late after midnight. I always do this when I am going to have an exam in the next day because studying late at night is more efficient and I can catch all the materials that have ever been taught.
Finally, the time came. It was the time to do the exam as well as possible. I couldn’t wait to see if the questions were the things that I studied last night. I studied all the things actually and I was sure enough that I could do the exam well. I took this class together with one of my classmate, she is my best friend. During the class proceeded for about half of the semester, we made friend with an Australian, his name is Sam. We never tried to make friend with some other friends in class because we were in the different major and we preferred to make friend with Sam, it was ridiculous. Well, both of them seemed getting difficult in learning this language and I tried to help them for the exam. The three of us sat exactly in the front of the lecturer but we worked together to do the questions, it was another ridiculous thing.
Beyond my expectation, the exam was quite difficult because there were some new words that we did not know and we should translate it. How could we translate it if we were not allowed to open dictionary? It was a close-book exam, so no book could be opened during the exam. We decided to guess what it actually meant. Fortunately, we did not really have a big difficulty in doing it. Though the materials I have studied last night were not asked thoroughly, I was quite happy because I could finish the exam without any inconvenience and misery.. 

We are the Same, Yellow

I have dark complexion skin
It was on purpose, so why?
If it was not on purpose
Still, I would be pleased
Though you have fair complexion skin,
Doesn’t mean you are perfect
for we are the same, yellow

Don’t ever look down on me
or other people around you
of this case

Don’t ever be arrogant
They won’t be happy to hear what you say
Everybody has their own features

Don’t ever look down on people around you
Just because you are more perfect
you think; but I don’t

This poem is dedicated for anyone who always looks down on people around him just because he THINKS he was more perfect

Examining Midterm Exam

Friday, April 6, 2012
At last, the time comes. It is when I have to check my students’ writings for their mid exam. As I said before that I assigned my students to write on their blogs for the exam. I can’t wait to see their works. The deadline is actually in this midnight and I don’t think all students will obey the rule.
The first blog that I read is from a female student. She is quite active in class and good at writing. She chose to write one page about her idol. She wrote well and clearly in describing it. However, not all students submit their works this midnight. It’s been 12 but I haven’t received all their blog addresses yet.
There are about 8 students who have submitted their works and I have corrected them all. It is so surprised because generally their writings are good but they have problems in grammar. They construct sentence not in a good way. It is quite exhausted to check their works with many grammatical errors. I try to understand what they are trying to say. Indeed I appreciate what they have written and I will give a good result to who is being serious in my class.
I am still waiting for other students’ works. I hope I will have more spare time tomorrow to check their works that haven’t been submitted yet.

Disappointing Day

Thursday, April 05, 2012
Today was so disappointing for I failed in doing an effort. I was so sad and couldn’t stop thinking about it all day long. It drove my mood and it appeared to be somber and sorrowful. I hated this feeling, it tried to drive me crazy. I tried to share this all to my friend, the one whom my friends at class mocked. She amused me and accompanied me in this hard time. She was a nice girl, I love her. She said that I should not be upset because there would be the time when I would be successful in doing this effort. Then I became realize that possibly it was not the exact time to succeed. But still, it was difficult to let it flow just the way it was. I still felt disappointed and I could do nothing. It was very important for me. I tried hard to do this effort to reach something that actually became my dream since few years ago. This time I failed but I still have another time to do the same effort. I promise to try harder. Thanks for always being a good friend for me. You are there when I need you.

Learning Some Languages

Learning languages is fun but sometimes difficult. I take 2 languages in this semester, they are Dutch and Italian. I love learning new languages, especially European languages. I notice that European languages like French, Dutch, and Italian have many rules in constructing sentences. Unlike English, each thing even has gender in European languages. For example, television in Italian is female, cinema are male, and so on. The main problem is that we cannot know directly whether the thing is male or female. It is learned by heart as the book said. Besides, we can also know by using dictionary.
I learned French as well when I was in the first semester. Besides having many rules, the way we pronounce the word is different with the written form, even it has certain voice to produce; that is why I think it is the most difficult language.
Now, I am enjoying learning Dutch and Italian. The lecturer in Dutch class is very kind and intelligent. He makes me understand every part of the materials. He is Indonesian so I feel easy to learn it. There is an Australian in this class and he told me that he felt difficult to learn Dutch because he had to do double translation for the lecturer uses Indonesian language to teach.
The lecturer in Italian class is really funny. His name is Fabio, he is native Italian. We love the way he teaches us because he always makes jokes in every meeting that do not make us boring when learning the language. However, it is quite difficult to understand what he speaks since his accent is very strong. He likes to add the hard sound in every English word he says. Sometimes I do not understand what he is talking about but I become more understand after the class proceeds for 3 meetings.
I have a big responsible in every week now. I have to remember all the rules in Dutch and Italian. Though it is difficult, I try to study hard understanding the rules for it is my own choice to learn two languages at the same time. However I do not consider it as a burden, I enjoy it very much. My intention is not about speaking the languages but understanding grammar. When I was 9 years old studying English for the first time, I learned grammar, not speaking or any other thing. So I am sure I am better at writing than speaking. Writing here means constructing sentences using a good grammar. I am more interested in learning it. Speaking can be learned by practicing and I tend to emphasize my skill on grammar.

Preparing Mid Exam for My Students

When I was asked to be one of the tutors in English Department, my lecturer said that we could do anything we wanted to decide what way we should teach the students. She said as well that we could give result based on whatever test we gave. Then I began to think what kind of test I was going to give them. I began to prepare anything for the first until the end of the meeting. I designed my own course outline although the realizing was not so successful.
I planned to have mid and final exam. This week my students and I prepared the thing for the mid exam. So I decided to assign them to make a blog and move their writings, which were done in the previous meetings, into their blog. They should choose one out of four topics to make it longer. We had 4 topics from the previous meetings; they were what love means, superstitions, Indonesian food, and idol. I guess they will choose the last one since I believe that it is very easy to write.
The deadline for the mid exam is next Friday, no later than 12 a.m. I am sure this kind of exam will not burden them for all things that they have to do is just moving their writings and write a one-page writing about what they have done before. I hope they like doing this kind of exam. I cannot wait to see their new writings. Some students write very well but they still have a problem in constructing a good sentence. I do hope that this writing class will help them in improving their writing skill.

Face Treatment: Egg White Mask

Women need to look after their physical beauty, especially face since it is very important for them. Most women in this modern era do a treatment in the beauty center. We can find so many beauty centers nowadays. The result will be very quick for they use technology and new innovation. However, it will be better for women to treat their faces naturally. There are so many natural and traditional ways to treat faces. Here, I have one of those tips:
Egg White Mask
1. Prepare an egg, break it and separate between egg white and egg yolk
2. Scramble the egg white until it becomes a foam
3. Smear the egg white foam on your face
4. Stick tissue to your face until it covers your whole face
5. Wait for half an hour until it is stiff
6. Remove tissue from your face
7. Clean your face with warm water, then continue with the cold water to minimize the pore
The result will not come directly. Do it regularly for once or twice a week. Have a nice try! :D

Refreshing Time

This week is a long weekend. Friday is Hari Raya Nyepi for Hindu so the holiday is from Friday to Sunday. I decided to go along with my boyfriend and his family. There were 6 people in a car; me, my boyfriend, his parents, and his two sisters. We went to the mall nearby, spending time and money for buying some stuff on Saturday. That day was the last day for my boyfriend’s parents in Jogja, they live in Bali and wanted to spend their holiday here. They are not Hindu because actually they are not native Balinese.
In the afternoon, we had lunch and went to the mall. We spent more than 3 hours to go around and find something interesting to buy. We bought this and that, and finally we have spent much money, it was more than a million rupiahs! Realizing the time was over, we went to the airport in a hurry. We should check in at 6.30 p.m. and fortunately we were not late.
We were certainly sad to let them go back to Bali. The holiday was over. The plane took off at 8.20 p.m. but we left from the airport earlier because we had to turn the rent car back. We had dinner first at a restaurant. Unfortunately, I did not enjoy the food because it took long time to be served and the taste was not so delicious. But that was not a problem because we were happy of being together all day long.
They took me home at 9 p.m. and they turned the rent car back. I was so happy today to spend time with them. It seemed that I was with my own family. I love them all,,,

My Pitiful Friend

It is a story of my friend, my pitiful friend. I will not say which friend of mine is on a pity. Here, I do not mean to insult anyone but if someone is offended, I would say really sorry.
I have a close friend and I have a pity on her. I admit that she talks more than other people, she is talkative and sometimes annoying. That is why my other friends in class stay away from her, even they mock her. She is really pitiful but I think she does not care about that.
I like to be together with her. Although she is talkative, she talks something important and useful. I learn so much from her. I become knowing anything because she tells me.
Once, I have ever stayed away from her as well. I defamed her with my other friends at class. But there was the time when I had to be with her. Soon I realized that she is a good friend. She gives me a lot of information that I do not know. Now, I become liking her and I promise not to defame her anymore.
Actually, she realizes that some friends always talk about her. But I believe that she is such a confident girl that never considers what other people say about her. I state once again that she is not that annoying. You can learn anything from her because she is global-minded.
So far, some of my friends at class still defame her. But I am in her side now. We are often together to share about my study that I do not understand because she is also smart and clever. I also like to spend time together with her, having lunch, chatting, or even joking.
I hope they will soon realize that she is a nice person. She is a good friend who always gives useful information for us. She has broad knowledge and she is able to help me in any case. I hope as well that she will be a successful person, so that they can regret of what they have done to her.

An Afternoon Meeting

This is a meeting for preparing student service that is going to be held from July to August this year. It has been held for more than 3 times. Sometimes it is boring for me because actually all things that we talk about are almost the same thing. We are going to do the student service on July but we have to prepare anything from now. It is not easy to set it up all. Fortunately, the leader of the group is wise enough and good at being a leader. I guess he has experienced in becoming involved in some activities before.
Today the meeting is arranged at 2.30 in the afternoon. Honestly, I do not know all the members of the team because it is my second meeting while they have had more than 3 meetings and they are from the same department. There are even some of them who are in a relationship. It is no problem for me, I understand it.
So, what we discussed this afternoon was about the programs that we are going to carry out. Actually the meeting only took a short time, around 30 minutes but some people were late. We have decided that people who come late will get charge of 5000 rupiahs. This rule is fair, I think, since they will be motivated not to come late. Being disappointed that the meeting was held for only 30 minutes, I went home directly. I was so annoyed that some people were late and the meeting was not so conducive and ended within 30 minutes.
Talking about the place of the student service, it is going to be in a village in Selomartani, Sleman. Actually it is not a real village. The facilities and people there are quite modern. But we hope we can run this activity smoothly for we intend to improve and develop the village.

Love at the First Sight

When I stepped on my campus for the first time, I was amazed by the marching band performance in the ceremony for welcoming new students. It was so beautiful that everybody couldn’t turn around from it. I didn’t know why. It was I who was excessive or it was indeed amazing. Since that time, I intended to join this activity in campus; we called it UKM (Unit Kegiatan Mahasiswa).
Few months later, I made it true by joining this activity. I registered and did the placement test. In marching band there are 3 sections, they are: percussion, color guard, and brass. Honestly, I wanted to be color guard player, the section which plays some equipments like flags, rifle, saber, and etc. And finally, I was accepted as the color guard. I was so happy and I promised to be serious. There were 8 students joining this activity who were my classmates. They were accepted in different section with me.
It ran well for about few months. But it was revealed that many students quit from this activity. I admitted that this kind of activity seized more time. It also needed endurance. I did not deny as well that this kind of activity made people exhausted and they had to sacrifice their time and energy. So, I think people who could join this activity are not common people. At last, my classmates also quit and there were only 2 students in my department who joined it, me and my friend, Mayang. We worked harder and harder to join the inauguration. A couple of months later, we were truly the members of Marching Band Universitas Gadjah Mada after being inaugurated. It was not easy to get it all because we had to do some efforts and it was so hard.
After being inaugurated, my really first performance was the celebration of Marching Band Universitas Gadjah Mada’s birthday, it was some time on April 2010 if I am not mistaken. Then, the management of my band decided to join the most important event in Jakarta. So, we had to prepare for about 8 months. It was so challenging and sometimes boring.............TO BE CONTINUED

December 2010

Let me tell you about something.
It is something that was happened more than a year ago. I joined marching band competition in Jakarta, it is called Grand Prix Marching Band. It is held annually and some schools and universities in Indonesia usually join this competition. It is an important event for all marching bands in Indonesia.
I left for Jakarta a week before the day of the competition. We were all more than 90 people consisted of players and crews, in 3 buses. We had to be quarantined for few days in Jakarta. I could say that this quarantine was very severe because we actually have not reached the target. What target? So, in showing our performance, we had to prepare 12 minutes that consists of about 3 or 4 movements. We had 4 movements plus percussion feature. In performing it, we should also have a theme. We chose Tom and Jerry at that time. So, from movement 1 to movement 4 told about the story of the theme. We had the characters of Tom and Jerry, which were characterized by my friends, Dita and Santi.
Talking about the quarantine, we had it for about 3 days. We had to practice from 7 a.m. to 10 p.m. We were accustomed to practicing for more than 12 hours in a day. All we did were just playing the 4 movements and drills. We did it over and over again. Of course we felt bored but we realized that we have not done it well that was why we always repeated the same thing every day.
The day came. We were totally ready for the 12-minute performance. I was so nervous and trembling when I entered the stage. It was held in Tenis Indoor, Istora Senayan Jakarta which was very big, wide, and cold. I couldn’t stop praying and when the music was played, I tried to forget my nervousness and perceive it. Finally, 12 minutes was nothing for me, I couldn’t say that 12 minutes was too long because it was happened quickly. I was so relieved after leaving the stage.
We had to wait for the announcement for about 3 hours. When it came, I had a seat with a special person in my band, he is my boyfriend. We couldn’t wait to know who the winners were. We were sure that we would be one of the winners because our coaches said that we performed well and optimally. Marching Band Universitas Gadjah Mada was called as the second place. YES, that was my band! We applaud and cheer happily. Finally, we were the winner. We were not disappointed because of being the second winner, we were proud of our selves. Without winning the second place, we were still the winner for ourselves.

December 2011

Let me tell you about another something.
It was just the same as what happened on December 2010. I joined marching band competition, again. As I said before that it was held annually and was one of the most important events for marching band enjoyers. As usual, we left for Jakarta a week before the day of the competition and we had to be quarantined for few days. Again, it was more severe than the last year because we were not serious and we have not yet reached the target that was determined. During the quarantine, we were woken up in the middle of the night to practice and have dress rehearsal. Our schedule of dress rehearsal was at 3 in the morning so we had to practice for a couple of hours before 3 a.m. In the first day of quarantine, we didn’t even sleep in a day but then we were given more time to take a rest.
The difference between last year and this year competition was that my boyfriend did not join the same band with me. He joined another band in Kalimantan called Marching Band Sangkakala. He wanted to experience new things so he went to Kalimantan 2 months before the competition. Actually, we had to prepare for this competition about 8 months. But for those who have been expert on it could prepare less than 8 months. My boyfriend has ever joined this competition 4 times so he only needed 2 months to prepare it all.
When the day came, we were busy preparing this and that. Our theme was reformation. I know that this theme seemed serious but we had message for people about it. Our performing schedule was at around 4 o’clock. As I did last year, I tried to forget my nervousness and start enjoying the music. Again, 12 minutes went quickly.
Another difference with the last year competition was that my mother and brother came to see me in Jakarta. I was so happy they could have time for me to support what I did. So, I sat with them waiting for the announcement. My boyfriend sat in another seat with his new friends. Unfortunately, we were not as luck as last year. We were in the fourth place this year. I realized that we did not perform optimally. We were quite disappointed but that was game, there must be the winner and the loser. I think that was going to be my last performance in Grand Prix Marching Band. I am going to continue my study seriously and reach my dreams to make them true.

Friday in the Evening

We took her to the station, who was going to go home. Leaving for another city was sometimes hard for me and him.
We were really sad, that we tried hard to restrain our tears. Spending 5 days with her was the best time we have ever had.
We used to be together anytime & anywhere, that we couldn’t be apart. Living separately from her was like a sort of misery.
We really liked to eat the foods, which she always cooked for us. Tasting such these delicious foods was so delightful.
We used to love her; we really love her now; and we will always love her. Being together again is truly all what we want.
My mother…..

Conversation, Debate, Discussion?

I got many lessons today, having a serious conversation or it was more suitable to be called a debate. I am not going to talk about what things we talk about but it has something to do with religion. It is a sensitive topic for everyone. People have their own choice about religion. They have their own idea and opinion about this as well as me.
So, the debate or whatever it is called took few hours to talk. There were 3 persons debating and actually we did not find any solution until we had to stop the discussion without any agreement. Honestly, I know little about religion so I tried to discuss it with one of my classmate after having that sort of conversation with other 2 persons. He is really good at it and I trust him so much.
The topic is so complex that actually there is no wrong opinion about this. We see the thing in a different way, that is why we do not find any solution. But actually, there is no person wrong in giving opinions about the topic. The hard thing to me is trying to accept that their opinions are also true while I still think that what they talk about is nonsense.
I still have to learn more about this since I am not really good at it.

Irony

Irony… Yes, it must be happened on every person in this world in different case and situation. Why is it irony for me? Let see, I always feel difficult to begin writing. However, I teach writing tutorial class for the first-year students on their second semester. How could I teach them writing while I myself feel difficult to write?
When I am teaching them, I always try to be someone who does not get difficulty in writing. I always try to give them some tips in order to feel easy to write. I believe the tips I give them are meaningful and easy to be applied. But the problem is that I cannot apply my own tips on me. I do not know why, I tried hard but I failed.
I always think about it every day and sometimes I realize that God has his own way to help me in writing. By teaching writing class, I am motivated to learn more about writing and try to avoid the obstacles in it. As a matter of fact, indeed I have to learn how to write well and then deliver the knowledge for them.
In class, I know that they get great difficulty in writing. They ask me this and that and I try to answer all their questions wisely. I am honest to say that actually I also get the difficulty and I tell them my way to get rid of the obstacles. The most important way is do not be lazy to begin to write although we do not know what we are going to write. Sitting calmly and thinking deeply is a good beginning way to find a good topic in writing.

Interviewing

Few days ago, I interviewed foreigner who is my uncle. His name is Jeje, he comes from Australia. I asked him some questions about the way people in Australia serve food for their guest.
In Australia, it is not common for some people to serve a lot of food for their guests. He learnt from my family that people in Indonesia serve a lot food, especially when Idul Fitri day comes. I observed that he was a little bit shock when he knew that my grandmother serve a lot snacks. He also stated that the food served in Australia is not spicy, while in Indonesia, especially at my house, the most food are spicy.
In the weekend, people usually invite their friends to hold a barbeque party in their backyard. People who are invited usually man, not woman. And they usually wear short and T-shirt while doing the barbeque.

Nothing

I am actually nothing for them, maybe. They are such a kind of superior people, and I?? Maybe inferior for them. I just like the way they are talking and discussing something. They see a certain case in this way but I see a certain case in that way, we never come to an agreement. That is why I always keep silent and speak no single word. Unfortunately, they are right and sometimes I am wrong. I think I begin to admire them. They way they speak, the way they behave, the way they think, I love them! I have just realized about it since I was in the second year of my study in university. I have no one to share, sometimes I am embarrassed of myself if I tell it to someone else. It is possible that I am not as good as they are but it is me, the real me. I just try to do what I ought to do and I realize that I cannot follow the things. It is not my place, it is over there and I can never reach it because it is too late. I cannot say “better being late than never”, it is no use anymore because it is extremely very late. I just want to congratulate them of their success in doing everything, but remember that I am not that weak, I will always struggle to reach what I supposed to reach, MY DREAMS….

My Students and I

My first student was a junior high school student. Her name was Tata. It was my first teaching experience, so I was very excited in our first meeting. She was nice but not really smart, she was in average.
My second student was Kevin. Oh my God, he always made me angry. It seemed to me that I hate to teach him. But actually it was not that serious. He was just bad at vocabulary and something like that. So it was my big duty to make him good at English.
My third student was Sheila. She was on the 3rd of junior high school, the same grade with my first student. She was such a smart student. She always asked me some questions that sometimes I was confused to answer them.
My fourth student was a thin and tall girl. Her name was Nuris, she was also in average. Let’s talk a little bit about her house! It was quite big and beautiful. It was such a common house in the foreground but it was big and beautiful in the background and there were a lot of ethnic interiors. I love them!
That is all of my first experience in teaching and I am trusted to teach 4 students. Can you imagine how happy I am? Because I think that perhaps I am trusted to teach only one or two students. I do hope that I will get more students in the future.